Hi, Joanne ~
Welcome to the forum, although I'm sorry it's under these adverse circumstances.
Frankly, although I'm not a doctor, I don't believe you should be 'rushed' into AN surgery if you're terrified of doing so. This indicates a lack of conviction on your part that the surgery is necessary. I agree with the previous posters who question the judgment of doctors who claim a significant post-radiation re-growth in a few months time and declare that almost immediate surgery is the only option, scaring you in the process. However, if you're determined to undergo the AN removal surgery next week I can tell you that it isn't quite as scary as you seem to imagine.
Remember, you'll be unconscious (under anesthesia) during the surgery and won't know a thing that's happening. Post-op is a bit different for every surgery patient. Yes, some AN post-op patients experience nausea, imbalance, double vision and/or headaches and most have a very strong desire to take a nice, hot shower - but that usually has to wait awhile. 'Sponge baths' suffice for the first few days. Frankly, there simply is no template for your immediate recovery experience. Some of our members are out of the hospital in a few days but the majority have a 5-day hospital stay, as I did. The majority of AN post-op patients have a good recovery but there are always a few issues to deal with, for most, anyway. It may not be what you want to read but frankly, Joanne, no one can accurately predict exactly what your post-op experience will be. I wish I could. Mine was quite easy and I recovered quickly, once discharged from the hospital. I was driving again within 2 weeks of my surgery date. I can only hope and pray that should you choose to go through with your January 21st surgery date, you have a very similar experience.
Please stay connected here and let us know what you decide to do and how things are going for you. We care and want to support you as you deal with this unwanted challenge.
Jim