Hi all,
i just wanted to post one last time before my surgery...i don't really know what to say except thanks..when i first found out about this an about a month ago, i could have never imagined how many people with this same thing would be reaching out to help me. i cannot express enough to all of you who have prayed and thought of me this past month. i look back at the beginning of may and remember how scared i was...how i didn't want to go to the ent to get the results, but when i got them i came out thinking..ok i can do this...then getting scared to meet with the neurotologist...and finally getting there and coming out again thinking...ok, i can still do this...then the meeting with the neurologist...i was freaking out...but it was great...and thanks to Capt Deb knowing that i would totally PASS my pre op tests..lol...which i had yesterday ..and i guess all went well....i didn't have hardly anything done ..they said i was in good shape and healthy...surprised the heck out of me
but all in all...everything has gone so smoothly for me this past month...i would have never thought i would have made it this far...and the best part is that i have met so many wonderful people on this site..i think i have probably drove many of you nuts with all my wacko questions...but you have never , not once thought i was out of my mind...you sat and listened and gave me helpful advice...and for that i thank you all...from the bottom of my heart...you know God has his hand over my sitaution..and i have been praying for all on here every night...i don't know what the final outcome will be from this surgery...i know one thing for sure now...I WILL MAKE IT...I WILL LIVE..AND I CAN GO ON WITH MY LIFE....i wish that you all knew how much you mean to people like myself you come on here..scared to death ...thinking am i going to die...am i going to make it ....and then along comes someone who says...hey, its ok, we have been there...call me...
when i emailed Michelle out of the blue...i never thought she would email me back..but she did ..and she did it because she cares...and so many others...people i have never met before who are willing to give me their # and say " call anytime"....its ok...
i pray that one day i too will get an email out of the blue from someone who was just like me...and i can be as responsive as all of you have...
so, i don't want to make this sound like the end...cause its not... my last day here will be June 27th..so i won't have computer access..but i will be contacting people by phone..Michelle has already said she will call and harass my husband
cool...i want to keep you all posted...because i truly believe that you care...
so, to close thank you to everyone! you have touched my heart in ways you may never know...but it will stay with me forever...i am going to enjoy this last week with all that i have...and i am going to enjoy my life after AN with everything more that i have....
thanks for listening
Kim