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The Last Post - "I'm Dead"
« on: May 05, 2011, 01:06:07 pm »
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Re: The Last Post - "I'm Dead"
« Reply #1 on: May 05, 2011, 03:44:40 pm »
Doc ~

Although I cannot subscribe to Derek Miller's nihilistic outlook on death (I'm a Christian) his eerily dispassionate 'last post' on his blog is none the less moving.  As you noted, a stark reminder of 'what could have been' for any of us.   His somewhat detached regrets about not being able to see his family as they grow or what technology will evolve during the time that he would have been alive (had colon cancer not ended his life at age 41) is quite poignant.  Mr. Miller's admonition that although we plan, much of those plans won't come to fruition was not only astute but familiar.  He probably didn't realize it but he was, in effect, re-stating the old adage; 'man plans, God laughs'

Prayers for this man's family and thanks to you for submitting this sobering reflection from a man who has died and wanted to leave something behind by sharing his final thoughts.  I wish they were a bit more affirmative but at least they are genuine and in his situation, that he was able to write them at all is impressive.  I won't soon forget Derek Miller and his 'last post'.

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Re: The Last Post - "I'm Dead"
« Reply #2 on: May 05, 2011, 06:33:04 pm »
So sad..
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Re: The Last Post - "I'm Dead"
« Reply #3 on: May 06, 2011, 05:00:29 pm »
Very very Sad.  Will be praying for that family.

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4 cm left AN/diagnosed 1/23/09
Translab 4/14/09
Cyberknife 7/09
Gold weight implant 8/09
Barrow Neurological Institute, Phoenix
Dr. Syms and Dr. Porter
Balance issues, 100% hearingl loss (left ear), tinnitus, facial numbness/pain,
chronic fatigue, weakness, eye issues

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Re: The Last Post - "I'm Dead"
« Reply #4 on: May 07, 2011, 06:10:09 pm »
This man kept the love of life and the love of his family  and friends with him to the end.  Thankfully he seemed to keep his mental faculties, also.  What a truly brave thing to do...to keep a journal of your terminal illness.  For me, not inheriting the religion gene, I found his thoughts to mirror my own in many ways.   I am so sorry this man lost his life way to soon.   Thanks for this link.   

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Re: The Last Post - "I'm Dead"
« Reply #5 on: May 27, 2011, 03:58:09 pm »


Makes you think doesn't it?
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Re: The Last Post - "I'm Dead"
« Reply #6 on: May 27, 2011, 07:50:44 pm »
When I die, if there is anything they want or can use....they can have it!!
Sue in Vancouver, USA
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Gamma Knife Center of Oregon
My Blog, where you can read my story.


http://suecollins-blog.blogspot.com/2010/02/hello.html


The only good tumor be a dead tumor. Which it's becoming. Necrosis!
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Re: The Last Post - "I'm Dead"
« Reply #7 on: May 27, 2011, 08:28:43 pm »
Here here...I'm with you Sue...although I'm not sure there'll be much left of me that would be of any value to "anyone" else?!?
Left-Translab July '09. Cyberknife Jan 2010. In Apr 2017, four more tumors found; three in the brain and one, 7cm long, on my spinal cord; it was surgically removed. It was cancerous, and so are the others. I've been receiving Chemo since June '18, and I'm still in treatment.

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« Reply #8 on: May 27, 2011, 08:30:14 pm »
cheers to science, & scientists !
2.2cm length x 1.7cm width x 1.3cm  depth
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Gold weight 7/19/06, removed 3/07
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Re: The Last Post - "I'm Dead"
« Reply #9 on: May 28, 2011, 11:32:40 am »
I have my donor card...do you?
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TRANSLAB 04/07/09 2cms at time of surgery
Dr. Benoit and Schramm, Ottawa Civic Campus
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Re: The Last Post - "I'm Dead"
« Reply #10 on: May 28, 2011, 11:49:41 am »
A living will and advanced directive are good ideas, too.
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