Acousticlady:
I think you'll find this post helpful:
http://anausa.org/smf/index.php?topic=6670.0Look about 1/3 of the way down the webpage for my post, which compares surgery to different types of radiation.
I feel compelled to make one light criticism of PaulW's otherwise excellent post: The risk of death from microsurgery in these modern times is so incredibly small that it needn't concern you. But as Paul noted, there are many other risks, and some are fairly high from a statistical standpoint (depending on which surgical approach -- or entry to the brain -- the surgeon takes).
I was initially terrified of and adamantly opposed to radiation, until I did my research and consulted with six (yes, six!) doctors. (I recommend you get at least three different opinions, as that will help clarify your options and help you "go with your gut," as Phyl wisely espouses.) Everything I learned pointed to -- in my particular case -- a worse outcome with surgery than with radiation. I eventually warmed (no pun intended) to the idea of getting radiation, specifically CyberKnife (CK). The biggest factors that steered me away from microsurgery were that the doctors I consulted said I had a 31% chance of permanent facial paralysis and 100% chance of complete hearing loss on my AN side with microsurgery; with CK, those risks fell to less than 1% (facial paralysis) and about 40% (complete hearing loss).
Assuming you've done your research to weigh the risks from different treatment options, what it all boils down to is a choice between psychological comfort (do I want this thing out of my head or can I live with a dead tumor inside my skull?) versus picking the treatment option that most of your consulting doctors predict will give you the highest quality of life going forward (good function of facial muscles and sensory nerves, preserved hearing, functional -- if possibly imperfect -- balance).
One thing to keep in mind is that there is roughly an equal risk with microsurgery and radiation (as little as 2% for a small AN) of the tumor recurring (growing back). So neither treatment guarantees the tumor will not grow again after treatment. If your main influence in choosing a treatment is the desire to have the darn thing taken out of your head, please realize there is a very small risk that the exile of the tumor may not be permanent. Quite a few members of this forum -- both those who have had microsurgery and those who have had radiation -- have reported their tumor growing back.
Choosing the most skilled doctor and well-equipped medical facility is arguably more important than the type of treatment you choose. Having the best medical team treating you, in a state-of-the-art medical facility, gives you your best shot at a positive outcome. Practice makes perfect, especially when it comes to any type of brain surgery (including radiosurgery, or radiation).
In the end, I chose CK. But I was still terrified going in for my treatment. It's important to realize that those terrible fears are not prescient. You can be afraid and still have a wonderful outcome. That was certainly true with me. The point I'm trying to make is that you needn't wait until you are comfortable with your choice; that may never happen. Going with your gut means choosing the treatment plan you are
least uncomfortable with, then surrendering to your doctors' expertise and skill and letting fate take you on your journey. Do your research, listen to your inner voice, and make both an educated and intuitive choice. Do that, and you will come out of this just fine.
Best wishes,
TW