I have tried to explain to my wife how this surgery has changed my ability to think and act. I am still wonky 24/7, 22 months after surgery. I depend on my eyes for most of my balancing. It just wears me out some days. It takes a lot of concentration to walk straight. I have told my wife it is like talking on the phone while driving...you just did not see that stop sign or that school bus stop. Your brain is doing something else besides driving. Balancing yourself is just as distracting.
Last week, my wife wanted to learn how to shoot my AR15 rifle. She has never fired a gun or rifle. We went to the range and set up a target and she started shooting using a gun-sight...she is a really good shooter. After about 30 rounds, she said she was worn out by the amount of concentration it took to line up the sight, relax the breathing, correct trigger pull, etc. I used this as an analogy of how I get worn out so quickly some days. Concentrating to stay vertical, walk straight, not fall over, distracts me from listening, talking, thinking, and just being a relaxed human being. Imagine how worn out you would be if you had to concentrate like that all day long.
Not complaining. My life is just different now. I accept the difference. I always have to remind my wife and friends that I am a little bit different now. They cannot SEE what is going on in my head. They always tell me I look and act normally, but my head is always going 100 mph just to stay vertical. It really can wear you out.
James