I'm having even more terrible headaches, dizziness, confusion, swelling & hot pain at the surgery site post-surgery (
nearly 6 months post open brain surgery) ~b ut my surgeon's PA does all the follow-up & she doesn't listen to me or even act like she cares. You can freeze ice with her eyes & heart. I'd have to fall over convulsing before she would give a slight show of empathy or concern. I can't handle this pain anymore. I wish I wouldn't have had surgery & just been able to die. All my previously kind & attentive doctors are now so proud of themselves that they discard everything I say. All my doctors are concerned with after surgery is that you survived & are breathing...notch in the belt.
I started a college class recently to keep myself from dying from boredom, this started to help my emotions to get out of the house & talk to people. Amazingly, I'm doing good in my classes. I get supportive services but I feel smarter & more importantly I'm starting to feel like myself again, like the half missing feeling, lost & detached feeling that was taking my joy of who I was inside, that terrible fog is lifted!!!
But I'm still so tired & weak within an hour, I'm ready to take a nap. I hate to complain but my doctors are
not listening and my headaches are getting worse everyday. The surgeons PA told me to take ibuprofen instead of filling the prescription for the anti-inflammatory steroid my ENT doctor (w
ho assisted with the surgery) gave me at my follow-up. Ibuprofen for someone with a bleeding ulcer! Now my tummy is all messed up & I'm
still swelling & hot.
I've been using ice cold wet compresses on my forehead & back (
and the right side of my head where tumor was removed) every day since my surgery to keep the swelling & heat down. The nurses at the hospital post-surgery told me & my family that they had never ever seen a brain surgery patient use ice cold wet washcloth (
compresses) to control swelling after brain surgery. Well then why wasn't my doctor alerted to this? And why isn't the PA concerned?
I have to take my headache medicine every 2 to 3 hours instead of 3 to 4 times a day. I wake up in the middle of the night (
even though I take a sleeping pill). I wake up crying in agony with horrible headaches every single night the last couple months. I have to take another headache pill, Ibuprofen & Percocet. It takes about 30 minutes of so before I can calm down & my breathing has been getting difficult, snorting, gasping like before they found the tumor pressing on vital nerves & did immediate surgery. The only thing that is better is the vertigo, thank God, but the pain, confusion, fatigue & severe headaches are getting worse everyday.
I know my doctors want encourage me to not worry. I think they are, at the same time, being negligent about my current issues. I have experienced this cut off sort of care after a global fusion years ago. Its like once the surgery was done, I was a file to be filed & a body to be shoved out the door, even though that surgery had a major complication where the doctor accidentally put 1 of the 4 screws all the way though my sacral cortex causing severe nerve damage. It was left displaced for over 8 years. I finally saw a good doctor willing to admit that the screw was misplaced & was causing my severe pain 24/7 along with incontinence, leg weakness, inability to sit for more then a few minutes without horrible agony in my low back & in my brain. The pain just throbbed until the pressure in my brain built up so high that all I felt was severe head pressure, head & neck pain, confusion & heard loud static noise like a TV station with no reception. I had to sit off to the side & lay flat on an ice pack for 8 years. It caused depression & other neurological symptoms. I lost a 19 year marriage & even lost my once wonderful fulfilling relationship with my children. I couldn't go out , have friends, enjoy my life, family & community. Its happening again! This attitude of my doctors - they did a great job saving my life since the tumor had been found almost too late & was attaching to my brain stem, affecting my breathing, etc. but I'm still having medical issues, suffering everyday in pain.
The only way they found the tumor was by doing an MRI instead of a CT, but now that I'm sick again they act like a follow-up CT is gonna show whats wrong. Hello!!!! If a CT didn't show my allegedly "slow growing" tumor the last several years in which a few CT's showed nothing was wrong so I suffered everyday from headaches, confusion, vertigo, vomiting & general pain & weakness, with no medical care or medicine at all!!! They found it with an MRI,. They are telling me the CT wasn't the right test, so why aren't they willing to do an MRI now? What should I do?