Taylor,
It's difficul;t from afar but all I can say is that you need to hang in there. I get so depressed at the state of my health these days that it seems so easy to just take the "easy way out" but i don't. I know that things will improve. I know that I have a great support network on this forum. I know that my family support me to their best ability. Since discovering I had an AN, I always put N/A down for Doctor's name. I never went to the quack. Since then, I could write a book about all the doctors I have been to. Now that doesn't matter so much. The bit that matters is that I know that I now have many physical limitations and I have to deal with them. I can't live in the past, I have to get on with what I can do rather than moan about what I can't do anymore.
It's pretty hard though. I am the main breadwinner in my family and if I "gave up", we would have to sell our home and do without a lot of what life has to offer. SO I DON'T GIVE UP. I move on and am continually trying to improve / change my lifestyle.
I suggest that you may want to try the forward approach and don't put any barriers in the way.
I'm sure your mom is right behind you but it won't be easy for her. My family are fully aware of my issues and for example, slamming a door rings right through me - does that sstop them from doing it on occaisions - absolutely not - they forget or don't realise what the actual effect is. I just quietly say, please don't slam the door. I could go ballistic but it wouldn't do any good. Unless you experience this thing and its effects, its very hard to understand the feeling. I understand that others cannot fully appreciate what we go through.
Try, try and be positive - you will get better, you will enjoy life again but you must think positive.
Laz
