Hi, everybody,
I've read this thread very carefully, and appreciate all the input for Bob. I've been feeling great since GK in July 07, but am now headed into my 2nd follow-up MRI and am feeling very apprehensive & sad. I know the hearing on my right (affected) side is worse and I'm worried about having to have physical surgery. My rational self knows there are lots of steps before I'd "have" to make that decision, but it's depressing nonetheless. So...if's WONDERFUL knowing that this great group exists, cares, and has been through similar.
If I may "unload" on you guys for a minute, I must admit that my fear of microsurgery comes from lots of experience with it amongst family members. Mother's aneurysm required one major and 4 other brain surgeries, and my first husband's surgery to remove a different kind of benign tumor (pushing on the medula) was his ultimate undoing, as he died 2 months later. My opinion is that he wasn't allowed to heal with the hospital lights/environment. He was older -- 72 at the time -- so that probably had an effect too. I've never told you guys about his death as a result of brain surgery because I don't want to scare people. I trust/trusted the neurosurgeon completely. But the truth is that it was the results of surgery did him in. I'm hoping that folks whom this would scare AREN'T reading this, but I now feel the need to tell you so you'll know my angst if I have to face brain surgery. For some reason, I've just been upset about all this this week, as SSD is clearly becoming a reality for me.
It may be that the SSD is still just a result of AN swelling from GK. I'm not really concerned if I end up SSD. I'm only concerned if the GK didn't work.
Anyway, thanks for listening. I don't write on the board much, but you're all an important part of my life.
Hugs,
Dana