Cakes,
it's not a pleasant thought. I am going through this and from time to time, I think - why, why me. I attacked it but it grew back.
After the depressed moments, and i won't hide from the fact that there are, i also think about the positives. The available treatments, the information flow and the cyber buddies who are going through similar issues.
You are right, what happens, happens. Got to use the hand that's dealt to us.
I am a really private person, I don't discuss these serious health issues at home coz I don't want to worry my family beyond where they are now. I do find that posting on this site, giving advice or encouragement a huge help, and of course the hunour. One has tobe silly from time to time. Laughter is a great medicine and I try and make a point of laughing all of a sudden anywhere. That does help. It won't remove whats in the head but it will alleviate mental anguish and anger for a period of time.
Laz