so it took a while for me to realize what was happening,
but i found myself getting really tense at restaurants, and in other loud situations,
then it finally dawned on me,
my hearing had changed on the affected side.
it was like i had three audio streams coming in on different channels at once:
1) the loud, constant din of the restaurant and other patrons' conversations (mainly in the neuroma ear)
2) music from the bar, or big screen tv (mainly in the good ear)
3) conversation at our table (well in the other ear, poorly in the affected ear)
while i didn't have a panic attack, heart didn't race, wasn't sweating from it, . . .
it was nevertheless very unsettling,
MORESO, until it dawned on me why i was so uptight
LESS SO when i realized it was an actual change in my hearing
and less mysterious yet, now that i see the cause
i can adjust to, learn to cope with, get used to - the hearing changes, especially now that i better understand the what/why of it.
BUT CERTAINLY WELCOME ANYONES INPUT AS TO SIMILARITIES OF THEIR EXPERIENCES.
IT SEEMS TO ME LIKE IT IS THE DISCREPANCY OF THE TWO EAR'S ACUITY, THAT IS CAUSING THE ANXIETY/UNSETTLEDNESS.
i tried putting a foam earplug in the bad ear, which didn't help.
but it was at a lower key restaurant
i need to try an earplug in the good ear to equalize things, and see if that helps.
no headaches
nothing else seen on the MRI
this thing is now deforming the internal auditory canal, and bulging out of it.
my guess is he will say the time for the next craniotomy is either:
a) when there is a significant facial palsy (greater than the anticipated post-repair palsy)
b) frequent debilitating vertigo
c) grows big enough that it is pressing on something else.
hearing preservation (on the affected side) is essentially a goner, now
all i can think of for now