Hi Stephanie:
I'm glad to hear you have movement only four months after your graft. May I ask how long your face was paralyzed when you had the graft?
I was told it would be best to have this surgery within the first nine months. Unfortunately, I didn't get an EMG until 12 months after my surgery, and because I'm having the surgery on October 8, it will be 14.5 months after my surgery. I worry that the surgery won't be very effective.
I am paralyzed from the base of the neck up on my right side. My throat is even half paralyzed which causes me difficulty swallowing. I wake-up at night unable to swallow, therefore unable to breath. Fortunately that wakes me up and all I have to do is walk a bit, or go down the stairs and then I'm fine. So, it's my eye (still can't close my eye without touching it), eyesight (optic nerves aren't working right), frequent bloody nose, and difficulties eating, drinking and swallowing that bother me. Surprisingly, I'm fine about my new look and I'm not doing this for cosmetic reasons although I do think that is a valid reason to have the surgery. Truthfully, the way people have treated me makes me like people more than I did beforehand. I haven't met anyone who finds it uncomfortable to look at me while talking. I truly believe attitude is the key: If you know you're more than your appearance, then you will be more than your appearance. When I was a model, they used to tell me, "Believe you belong in these clothes," which wasn't always easy when I was living in my overly-shared under-sized-apartment eating Top Ramen every night. Sure there are a couple of double-takes now and then from strangers, but my neighbors and friends don't have a problem. I used to smile all the time, so everyone says they still see my smile when I half-smile.
The only thing is that I do miss my smile and I'll admit: I hate looking in the mirror, so I don't. Those quiet moments with myself are hard. I especially miss my usual high-level of concentration, confidence, retention, creativity, memory and thoughtfulness I had pre-surgery more than any physical hindrance.
So, I'm just having the first part of the surgery and I'll be happy with whatever improvements to my functions I get: Something has to be better than nothing, right? Well, I'll believe it when I "feel" it, but I'm not very hopeful.
If anyone else has any input on having this surgery so late in my recovery, I'd love to hear from you.
Thank you,
Mimi