Hello again,
I will post more about my simptoms but for now I have only one question that keeps my mind busy and from what I see you are extraordinary people with allot of wisdom, so please who can give me an answer...your personal oppinion is enough.
I asked the doctor "Ok I have these acoustic neuroma, I accept it because I can't do anything to change that I have it, but why me? I want to understand what I did to create this neuroma? Or was I born with it? Was I from beginning more susceptibil to making this neuroma?" ....the doctor told me something general that "this neuroma just appears, it could be from birth or it could appear anytime in our lifespam" which I understand that is the general medical answer but I need to understand...WHY? The doctor told me that" in general the neuroma grows 2-3 mm a year so maybe I have it for 10 years now but it is not a rule" so I had something, maybe 10 years?
SELF MADE
Could computer radiation create this, if you work like 10 hours everyday on the pc for like 5 years? I had a first part of my life very healthy, played soccer 12 years(2hours everyday training) combined with 7 hours of school a day didn't have time or energy for anything else that could damage my health(pc, tv, alcohol, cigarets, bars and stuff like that) but after 19 years old went to colleague and untill now I think ,I worked, played etc. on the pc like 10 hours a day for like 5 years but did almost everyday sport so it was something like 10 hours- pc and 1 hour- sport everyday, which I think is not so bad looking at other peoples everyday program...I don't drink alcohol, I don't smoke, I was always healthy and fit....so what did I do wrong?
GENETICALLY MADE
I remember always beeing more sensitive at loud noises from a young age:
- felt strange in club's were the music is so loud and everybody else was just fine, so didn't go so often
- was with my family at a formula 1 grand prix in Budapest(aged 16) and remember that I couldn't stand that loud noise at all, it was like a nightmare for me but everybody else was cool about the noise and looked at me strangely
- 2 hours a week for one year I was soccer referee(and still am), and I had a whistle which I had to blow it very hard, very often...it hurt my ear everytime i blow the whistle untill it got used to it but after the soccer game was over I was feeling strange(heard noises in my ears much time after), but thought it is normal untill i complained to my colleague referees and they all told me that they are ok after the game is over. My symptoms were much stronger in comparison to them
Sorry for writing such personal things, I know everybody has enough personal problems but I would appreciate a thought, oppinion because I want to know what caused my neuroma....if it is more genetically I can deal with it and fight with life as it is, but if it is selfmade I would be angry at myself and change my lifestyle...