Cary:
Thanks for giving us the real crux of your problem.
The fact that being self-employed is becoming financially difficult for you and your family is certainly unfortunate but somewhat understandable and, sadly familiar. Although small business firms account for most of the jobs in the U.S., the failure rate is around 35% the first year and goes up to about 45% after four years. The reasons are many; including competition, poor market analysis and of course, lack of capital. Taxes and insurance also take their toll, as you made quite clear in your previous post.
You also admitted that you aren't complaining about insurance companies or doctors but the cost of being self-employed as it relates to insurance costs. That's a viable complaint but this thread is populated mostly by folks who are employees and are covered by medical insurance their employer subsidizes. It shows that various AN patients have sometimes vastly differing coverage. Some pay little for their radiation/surgery/doctors/hospital and others have to pay a lot more for the same basic care and incur big bills. As the late President John F. Kennedy famously stated:
"life is unfair".
Unfortunately, some folks seem to think that 'universal' or nationalized health insurance with a government bureaucracy at the helm would be a panacea for this kind of problem. I think it would be a massive boondoggle that would quickly end up rationing health care and basically have citizens paying more (via increased taxes)and getting less as well as losing their freedom of choice in doctors, hospitals, etc. However, thats a separate issue.
While anyone can sympathize with your plight and the fact that you can't afford deluxe medical insurance, being self-employed is a risk that almost always incurs some sacrifices. It stinks that in your case, your medical insurance has to be one of them. Obviously, self-employment isn't for everyone and, in the final analysis, it may not be economically feasible for you. I know the taxes, alone, are horrendous and, in my opinion, unfair. I hope this situation is resolved and - if this is your desire - you can remain self-employed and, in the near future, be able to purchase health insurance with broader coverage so you can boast of
your tiny co-pay when receiving medical services.
Jim