I had a fortunate encounter yesterday.
I have been watch and wait since diagnosis 2 years ago. Growth has put me in the moderate size category and my symptoms made me decide to have it removed, scheduled for Dec. 11. I have significant balance issues and have learned to cope with it by using adaptive mechanisms (ie. I run my finger along the wall or rail as I walk and pay close visual attention). I believe it is not noticable to others at work because I concentrate hard to walk straight; at home I walk like I am drunk.
Yesterday I met another AN patient a most pleasant way. I was at work walking down the hall toward a stairwell behind an acquaintance that works at our large facility; she was walking slower than me but because of the narrow door and stairway I kept a distance behind her. At the top of the stairwell she looked back and saw me and said, "I'm sorry I'm so slow, I have balance problems". I asked her why because I thought I could relate to her. She told me about her AN that was removed 2 months ago. She had translab and her inner ear was removed; she is back at work half time after one month off. We had a short discussion about her experiences and will talk more.
It was such a relief and positive emotion for me to meet and talk to an AN person who is going through similar cirmcumstances. The feeling of isolation and being alone with my "problem" was greatly lifted. Even though I do discuss with my spouse and close friends I have a problem expressing myself without thinking I am sounding like a hypochrondiac. I mean, how can I describe loud sounds in my ear which no one can hear on a side on which I am deaf? It is truly all in my head, real, but in my head and I am the only one who experiences the difficulties.
That is the value of this discsussion forum; it is greatly enhanced by direct discussion with a fellow AN person.
Thank you,
JD
