.... and I am scared $%&*less! I know I can do it - I did go in last Friday for the whole day expecting it to be quiet - but it was actually quite busy. I will be going in every day for 5-6 hours at first - I have an Admin. job which is not physically strenuous. It just seems the people around me (work, parents, friends, etc.) are much more apprehensive about what i can do than I am! Did any of you find that as well? It makes me question my recovery sometimes ....
I have still not gone back to the gym - my head is still too wonky when I move too quickly - but I have been doing the Wii Fit (HIGHLY recommend this for balance rehab), floor exercises and I get out for a really, really long walk daily that incorporates lots of hills, snow and traffic. Heck, today my 5 year old was home from school not feeling so hot and I pulled him in his sleigh the entire walk - - I sure was pooped when I got home! I lost some weight from the surgery since I was one of the unlucky one's who vomitted frequently in the beginning due to the balance nerve being lost -- so I needed to firm up the 'chicken skin'.
My eye, balance and numbness on side of tongue, cheek (feels like I am talking thru marbles at times) are my biggest issues. My fatique seems fine - I am staying up until the news comes on and can get by on 6-8 hrs of sleep - I am sure though that once I do start working I will tire more easily.
I still wake up with a headache EVERY single day - - but at least I can control them - - but I am a Tylenol / Advil junkie - that is for sure ....
I have been a little down lately as I have not seen improvement in weeks now - I am sure internally there is improvement - but not that I have noticed. But like I keep telling everyone .... I am working hard at recovery and if this is it - this is it - I have to learn to deal with the annoyances. The biggest bummer is that my hearing on the left is gone - the nerve was flattened by the tumor - so this is hard to get used to in busy environments - and unfortunately, is not at an attainble level to warrant a conventional hearing aid.
So, anyway ....... I do thank everyone here for the support and I hope that you can offer me some good advice for my return to normalcy and the working world!