No matter how we look at it the truth is our treatments for the AN tumor were a real blow to the head (craniotomy or radiation). Head injured patients often complain of depression after injury. I do not see us as being that different.
I have certainly had some down-and-out moments but I have done everything possible to avoid the anti-depressant drugs… and have succeeded. When I am having a down time- I simply go for a good power walk. Some days I do not have the energy to do this so I do, in a sense, take a mild stimulant… I simply have a cup a coffee. (Yes caffeine- in moderation) Once that kicks in I seem to muster up some initiative to get outside and exercise… walk the dog etc. Usually after the exercising I feel much better.
Sadly when some people get down and out they pop open the refrigerator or pantry door (a noted American lifestyle issue) and eat some sort of “comfort foodâ€. Then they start to get big and out of shape – and the downward cycle kicks in. For me personally (I do not speak for others) exercise is the best ticket to get the adrenalin going to push out the “blahs and bluesâ€. The days I do not get my exercise in- that is when I am grumpy and sad. It takes discipline and assertion, on my part, to make sure that I get the quiet time to exercise (I prefer to do this alone and not with kids in tow- aerobic to loud music are no longer for me now that I am SSD and have hyperacusis)
Some days when I look in the mirror and I see the facial nerve damage from the surgery I get down. Sometimes I miss listening to “stereo†music now that I am SSD … but I have tried to focus on doing and trying new things for entertainment. I put less emphasis on things about me that involve physical appearance (IE working on my "character"). I take an ear filter to social environments and just try to learn new ways to adapt to my new situation. I refuse to become socially reclusive… but know when I have had enough noise in a social environment I bail out before I get too exhausted.
If I were to tell you I was always feeling positive I would not only be fooling you- but myself. For me the one thing that always pulls me out of this is getting out and about- and getting exercise (a minimum of 20 minutes fast pace increased heart rate stuff)
Here are some supporting articles to read
http://www.betterhealth.vic.gov.au/bhcv2/bhcarticles.nsf/pages/Depression_and_exercisehttp://www.mayoclinic.com/health/depression-and-exercise/MH00043This NJ AN support group discusses the “depression issueâ€
http://www.ananj.org/PostOp_Acoustic_Neuroma.shtmunder Depression & Memory
Here is a study done on this very topic of AN tumors and depression
http://cat.inist.fr/?aModele=afficheN&cpsidt=3258720 (Sorry wrong link)
CORRECTIONhttp://jnnp.bmj.com/cgi/content/abstract/61/4/403The British Acoustic Neuroma association actually has a pamphlet on depression
http://www.bana-uk.com/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=6&Itemid=6(Perhaps the ANA needs to address this too and produce a booklet for our members)Know you are not alone on what you are feeling. Try as many ways as you can to combat it with out anti-depressant drugs… but know that sometimes when a patient is in a "deep" depression- this can be the only way to get them out of it.
Everyone is going to preach his or her own coping method. Mine is
“fresh air and plenty of exerciseâ€HUGS
DHM