I am at about 8 months and still have daily headaches. I am starting to really be discouraged by it. Starting, you say? Yes, for the first 6 months I just assumed it was "normal" and would decrease over time. It hasn't. I need Ketoprofen and Maxalt almost every day and am only limited on maxalt due to insurance limitations. I'm also on disability. The problem with headaches is that unspoken, "How bad can it be. Just suck it up and go on." Well, I tell myself that too. Sometimes I get so frustrated that I'll just barrel through something that I used to be able to do (like look up to change batteries in my smoke detectors or walk my dogs). I then pay for it either by being unable to complete the task due to my head, or like Anne Marie, I have a terrible next day.
So when I get that periodic call from the Disability company I feel this incredible guilt that I haven't been able to go back to work. I would love to have passed on the brain tumor and subsequent issues but I don't recall getting a vote on that. Then I cycle through anger that I allow myself to feel guilty, and then sadness for the new me, and grief for the lost me.
Headaches can be real and unrelenting. I'm sorry for any newbies that read this because not everyone gets headaches. I think alot has to do with age (50's), stickiness of the tumor (yes), size of the tumor (2.9 cm), and location (mine grew up against my brainstem and pushed back into the cerebellum.)
My headaches vary. Sometimes the whole back of my head hurts. Sometimes it is the right, AN, side all the way from my neck to the head. Othertimes it is a stabbing feeling right over my ear. Occasionally they are more like sinus headaches, which I call my "previously intense, now wimpy compared to other headaches".
Sometimes they are like a vice, sometimes they are throbbing, sometimes stabbing, and other times it is an ache. I joke that at least I have variety.
Anne Marie, I think your story touched me and allowed me to just unload here. I think I needed to get this out, so thanks!!
Samantha