Thanks, all, for your posts. Very much appreciate.
1. As far as size, it's1.5 cm, and it's located I gather in a very accessible place. No complicated entries at all .... right there. I sense great confidence in this doctor to get the bugger out because it was in a straightforward location.
2. I believe the 95% meant that there's a 95% chance that he can successfully preserve my facial nerve "state" as it is today. He mentioned that I might experience some initial loss, but that it would come back, and that there was a 95% chance (from his experience with patients) that he could successfully preserve it the way it is today
3. I asked him what complications he ever had doing surgery. He responded that 1 person got a brain infection (and treated it by draining the fluid), and 1 person's facial nerve function did not come back. He also has 200+ brain surgeries / 5 + years experience under his belt, however they were not all this one type of surgery. I got good vibes from him ..... more importantly, so did my wife
- she has a good knack for "seeing through" people and she grilled him pretty good with steady, firm, and piercing eye contact
4. He explained that all he did was surgery, and hence he recommended I consult with 2 other surgeons that did both (and he gave me names), and that he had great respect for them, and that be believed they would have no bias one way or the other because they did both (unlike him).
5. My symptom is an increasing loss of balance. My hearing seems fine (some fullness feeling setting in in one ear). Radiation I gather from research (and from my visit with Dr) will not create any improvement to my balaance, may even make it worse (please NOOOOOO!
), for some long period of time (12-18 mos). This is particular to my circumstance .... logically it makes no sense to me to go 18 mos with no improvement, however this is my circumstance only, not necessarily true for someone else (in fact probably not true for most people who have the slow growing, hearing impacting tumors ....vs the fast growing, balance debilitating tumors like I have. Man it really stinks feeling like this!!!)
6. He was clear I am not in a life and death situation: His priorities would be (1) successful surgery in that I live to talk about it another day, (2) facial nerve preservation, and (3) hearing preservation. If I had to prioritize, that would be it.
7. I've done some research, and I really did not learn anything new from my visit other than that I have a fast growing VS. Typically these grow slow, and therefore the brain compensates for balance impediment, and the VS is typically looked into because of hearing loss. This is not the case for me. My VS is growing faster than my brain can adjust, hence I'm all wacked out ..... my hearing has never really been my issue, at least not yet because of the size?
8. I'm comfortable with the surgery, I'm not afraid to do it. Based on those "stats", it seems like a worthwhile gamble, I might even go as low as 50/50 on both. The probability of risk and the potential benefit of this option seem still like a worthy gamble than the higher probabilities associated with radiation treatment: MRI's for life, no near term vestibular benefit at least for a year, risk (even low) of tumor becoming malignant or growing back. Even if my hearing is 100% guaranteed ..... if I can't walk without stumbling for the next 12-18 mos, then what do I have to hope for? I'm willing to lose all my hearing ..... I want my balance back.
At this point I do feel the decision is now evolving more to a philosophical one, the information out there now in the internet is pretty consistent. I'm still looking, though, for a "balanced" (pardon the pun) perspective on all treatment options. I want to hear a good, strong case for radiation, given my circumstance. I don't think the mortality issue is my concern because I don't feel I'm going to die from the surgery (I understand it's a risk), not really worried about my hearing preservation, and I know radiation is the "safest" least invasive procedure. But I want my balance back in the most certain method possible. I really appreciate the the opposing point of view, and really want to hear it, so I can be "more" sure in my decision one way or the other.
Thanks again all.