BBB67,
Glad that we can be of support. You are definitely not alone, and you HAVE come a long way from what your post says. We of course are not prepared for the possible aftermath of this type of surgery.
Some have it easy, others not so.....It IS an emotional roller coaster, along with a physical one.
Many "forumites" regret they had to go to their doc for antidepressants, and the doc is like."Oh yea, sure, it is very common to be depressed (or anxious)." So not a biggie.
At least you are in sunny California through all this.
I am the
queen of antidepressants, and xanax, low dose, for my tinnitus so don't feel bad!
You do what you gotta do.
Humor is good medicine too...I had to have my facial nerve cut
so I used to joke that the entertainment for the night would be to watch me eat, and talk. Try saying the Peter piper picked a peck of pickled peppers, 10 times really fast with facial paralysis! The kids got a kick out of it.......Things are better now 3.5 years later, but still working on the face.....
Keep taking those baby steps- soon you'll be running!
Maureen