I thought I would share my recent treatment for my AN at Stanford. I have some earlier posts in the Watch and Wait section, but I'm not allowed to do that anymore, since I am now a postie.
Quick background (full posts on wait and watch):
AN identified June last year here in Australia. They have very limited technology options outside of surgery here and my neurosurgeon recommended watch and wait (and then eventually surgery). I waited for 6 months and in Feb this year I had a 2nd MRI and hearing test. The MRI showed tumor growth and the hearing test suggested further loss of hearing from 6 months prior. I got a bit concerned and decided to seek additional opinions from the US.
Plan of attack:
I arranged a trip to Stanford to visit with Dr. Chang and his team to understand their opinion, recommendation and options. This was meant to be a consultation only. The idea was to gain comfort with them, so that when the time came, I would know exactly what I was going to do and where I was going to go. Getting the appointment set up was a breeze - after a simple email request to Dr. Chang - he put me in contact with 2 members of his team to do all the scheduling, insurance details, etc. They even worked to accommodate my travel schedule since I was flying across the world to see them.
What happened next:
My family and I met with Dr's Chang and Soltys for nearly 2 hours. They were very patient with us, as we had hundreds of questions and often prodded for additional details. I really appreciated the fact that Chang practices both surgery and Cyberknife. He spelled out my specific AN situation in details related to both options and why he would specifically go with CK in my case. Very logical, very articulate, very compelling arguments. Of course I was still expecting him to say "when the time is right, but it is only small and we should just watch it for another 6 months, etc. etc." Well, he didn't say that...
Why the decision to go now?
Both Dr. Chang and Soltys had the same compelling way to look at it. Basically, where I was that day was my baseline. My baseline included the following: useful hearing (around 60%), minor tinnitus, zero balance issue, zero dizziness or vertigo, zero facial issues, no headaches... Not a terrible baseline, considering the known issues that this little AN can cause. His (and his team's) goal was to keep me at 100% of my baseline...period. Of course the number one goal is to kill the tumor, but I think you get my point (I certainly got his). So, I could go back to AUS and wait another 6 months and take a picture of it and get another hearing test (recall, in the last 6 months, my hearing had already degraded). Both Dr's were not against me doing that and stated that they would take me in as a patient at what ever time I felt was right. However, should I develop any further symptoms during that time, I would now have a new baseline and basically, that would be my new 100%. While this may not be enough for some, this was plenty for me and my family (after a very brief discussion) to determine the right thing to do.
From decision to schedule:
I left the consultation on Tuesday around 3PM. I made my decision to go forward with CK on Thursday afternoon and sent an email to Dr. Chang's staff to inform them of my decision and offer some dates that would work, since I planned on being in the US for the next 2 weeks. I called on Friday morning around 10AM and the staff had already gotten me scheduled, cleared all necessary authorizations and details with my insurance and set everything up. It was going too smoothly - too easy (this is when I decided that all stars were lining up and this was definitely the right decision).
Treatment week:
Arrived Monday - 5 April - for CT, MRI and mask fitting - the worst part about the visit - no food or coffee prior to the appointment. NO COFFEE! OK, I got over it, but I will say that when you are used to 2 cups before 6AM and you don't get a single cup until 11AM, well...OK, did I mention I'm not bitter...
Anyway, it went very smoothly, the nurses shuffled me around the clinic quite easily for the scans and the CK staff got me through the mask fitting quite quickly. The best part was when they told me I got to keep the mask.
Tuesday - free day - sightseeing in SF
Wed - first day of treatment - I was a bit uneasy, and not sure why, I am typically not that type of guy. So I opted for an atavan along with my steroid. The 45 minute session went by in what seemed like 45 minutes. The atavan may have helped, but it sure made me high the rest of the day, so I didn't take any more of that while I was there. Afterward back to SF for some sightseeing and nice dinner.
Thurs - second treatment - I was not at all uneasy this time, and the 45 minute session went by in what seemed like about 30 minutes. Now, I am not a meditator, but I was definitely trying to zone out to stay relaxed and positive and to pass the time. I think it worked. Afterward - some shopping - you know, for those things you just can't seem to get in AUS. I will admit though, I had to stop the shopping after a few hours, I was beginning to feel tired and a bit out of it, so I retired back to the hotel.
Fri - last session - I was a pro by this point and if I hadn't made it clear before now, the treatment was really nothing more that coming in and trying to take a nap for 45 minutes - I have to admit, that once they put the mask on me, I never opened my eyes, so I never saw the robot in action, but I heard it, so I believe it was working. This session seemed to go by in about 10 minutes. I was quite proud of myself for getting good at napping on demand or at attempted meditation. And just like that, it was all over. We said our goodbyes to the staff (did I mention they were wonderful), they gave me my mask and sent us on our way.
It all started feeling a bit surreal as we were leaving, like it all could have been a dream. There was absolutely no drama, no hardships, no pain, nothing that left a lasting impression of "whew, I'm glad that is over". So we just left...
Treatment finished around noon on Friday. By 10PM I was on a plane from San Fran back to Perth via Sydney. And there you have it; a trip to Stanford for a consultation that turned into a return visit for CK treatment. Was it weird the way it unfolded? Yes. Am I happy I made the decision? Yes. Would I recommend it to others? Caveatted Yes - as I know and most on this forum know, this is a decision that one has to make individually. If you are contemplating treatment by CK, I recommend it, but I won't push you to do anything - that is your call.
Why did I write this? I'm not really sure...maybe so I wouldn't forget it...maybe to remind myself how easy it was...maybe to try and share a story for anyone that may be anxious about an upcoming CK (or other treatment)...if I could aid just one person, that would be enough...who knows, it may just aid me, and that too would be enough.
I will attempt to post updates on how I am going as a postie. Right now, I am optimistic and determined to return to form quickly, but will push only as hard as feels right.
More to come...
Cayce