Had my first official reality check today
Yesterday I was on top of the world, I went walking early in the morning and felt like a million bucks. I did all my vestie exercises and felt so steady that I decided I'd try to drive my car around the corner. My parents live in a very quiet neighborhood. I felt so normal! I was certainly more cautious driving than usual, but I was comfortable turning my head in all directions and I had a good bearing on the road. I'm not ready to drive in traffic or cross-town, but I considered it a success.
When I got home, I did the dishes and a load of laundry and was pretty tired. I didn't sleep very soundly. This morning I woke up too early and felt like I'd been punched in the head with wonkyness and tiredness. I figured as much, but I had to try. After a few hours this morning, I went back to bed and took my first nap in 4 days. I woke up feeling so much better.
I'm not going to continue to push my luck, so I will take it easy today. I don't regret pushing myself yesterday. I needed the sense of accomplishment for my morale as I was starting to feel very pathetic and down.
My goal is go to my own home either tomorrow or Tuesday. I am feeling rather homesick and I crave my own bed and independence. I know I couldn't have made it the past week without my family's support, I need to start doing things on my own.