I went for a post-surgery checkup today at my local ENT. I was all worked up and didn't sleep last night. Well, I haven't had a decent sleep since October last year so that's nothing new.
I was also to have a hearing test and I felt very anxious. I imagined that my depression would spoil my concentration and I would wreck the result, and then the doctor would be very mad at me
I almost hyperventilated before entering the waiting room.
But, my left ear hearing is just fine, and the wounds behind and in the right ear have healed nicely.
I sure hope the antidepressants will kick in soon because these feelings are almost unbearable. I have consulted with my GP and we have decided to accelerate dosage since the only side effect is intermittent nausea. I can live with that. I'm at 75 mg venlafaxin now and presumed end-state is 225 mg, which is safe to reach in 3 weeks.
Kenneth