I didn't think I'd be bumping up this thread anytime soon, but having one of them days and need a good cry. In all my discussions and research and blah blah blah, seems I am alone in my "benchmark" of CK treatment and amount of RADS received. The side affects for me have interferred with my work life, my personal life and emotionally, I am now drained. As many of you know, I have such wonderful support around me, a wedding to planÂÂ
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(I'm talking the big ceremony next year) and so much to deal. I know I'm a mentally strong person and I know I'm entitled to my down days, but I have to say, I'm feeling alone in many aspects as I have no one to share the extent of the treatment I received against others that also had CK. Now, don't get me wrong... I do not question my decision. I do not question if other options for me should have been done. I'm thrilled I had CK done and have recommended it to many. But.. and yes, there is a but (and not my fat derriere, thankyouverymuch!)..... the side affects from this dosage is really wearing me thin.
I know many of you have been following along with my journey here. Gawd knows how many of you have tolerated my phone calls and such. I know many of you have given so much to me that trying to give back just doesn't seem to add up, regardless of what I try to do.ÂÂ
If you are planning CK, please please please make sure the radio-team gives you no more than 21Gy (18Gy-21Gy is the standard, thus far). For this person that has been zapped and whacked beyond imagination (and yes, knowing I am part of a study at BI for CK).... I urge you (all potential radio-patients) to reconfirm the amt of Gy they are going to dose you. I thought I was safe with 30 Gy. As one dealing with the after affects, I implore you to make sure your CK centers stick to the standard.
So, that is my rant for the day. Not often I have one... I think I was overdue. Heck... if I had more than 2 cups of coffee today, can you imagine just how bad this rant woudl be?
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Thanks all for your good ears... truly. No replies back to this rant necessary... just needed to get it out and to see it in black/white does help.
xoxoo
Phyl