Taylor, sweetie--I didn't mean to "Jump in your ____" like that--you just scared me. I have a family member who has been in and out of rehab for "self-medicating" with all manner of stuff and it scares me to hear people talk like that. Sorry.
It is so hard for us to accept the "new us" without outside help, medication or both.
Wellbutrin is one of the few I actually haven't been on over the years. I had depression issues before my AN (PTSD from being a hurricane refugee) and it really kicked in when I found myself in worse shape headache-wise than I was just after my surgery. Again--I can't give medical advice--I leave that to the docs. I can only share my experience. And my experience with depression is that there are great meds out ther which, when taken as prescribed, can give you some breathing room while you work on the causes of the depression, which is usually, in the end, an inability to accept big changes in one's life. Once that acceptance happens, we crawl out of the pit and go on with our lives.
Best of luck with your surgery--if you message me your address--I gotta lil sumpin sumpin for ya!
All the Wenches will wear our pirate sox that day--we have done this a few times over the past months and it has been really good luck for the so-honored person.
Big Hugs and a few smooches
Capt Deb