Hi Dadin,
Thanks for coming to the ANA Forums and making your first post!
Many of us in the forums have experience great anxiety, and yes, even panic when we were first diagnosed with an acoustic neuroma. The words, 'brain tumor', can be very scary, indeed! But, as Greece Love said so well, you can live your life very fully. I work in a hospital, and I see patients every day who are much more limited than I am. So, while I have become deaf in my AN ear, I have another ear that hears well. I have struggled with balance issues from my AN and have fallen a few times, but I received therapy and am doing well with my balance now. Like you, I have tinnitus. But like you, I have learned to ignore it, for the most part. Others have experienced terrible headaches or facial issues, but they continue on with their lives.
I guess what I am trying to say is, hang in there! It will be okay. Everyone's AN journey is different, but I am inspired by the men and women in these forums who have gone before us, and no matter what their limitations have been, they are able to enjoy their lives.
The worst outcomes are usually from those who have gone to doctors who were not experienced in doing many acoustic neuroma procedures. As Greece Lover alluded to in his post, you want to make sure that you go to a place that is very experienced in treating acoustic neuromas. Stanford appears to be one of those places, but I mention this for others who may read your post and want to go to their local neurosurgeon who may be skilled with other brain surgeries, but not in treating acoustic neuromas. You are dealing with your brain, not a fingernail. Get the best treatment you can!
Please let us know how it goes with Dr. Blevins. It's important to share information, good or bad, on these forums so that others may know.
Best wishes on your journey!
Don