think positive

[brasher]

hello all,
i truly hope everyone out there is doing well.   

i got depressed the other week as i was thinking about all of the things i couldn't do anymore.........hit a homerun, sail across an ocean, hike up a mountain....!!!!.....

[brasher]

hello all,
i truly hope everyone out there is doing well.   

i got depressed the other week as i was thinking about all of the things i couldn't do anymore.........hit a homerun, sail across an ocean, hike up a mountain....!!!!.....

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For myself,
I do the same

[brasher]

so then i started thinking about everything i could do,, with my new life and second chance...

who cares that my face is paralyzed...my friends and family don't....and i guess i don't anymore either..we are more concerned with how i feel, ...not how i look!

think of me as a one year old with thirty five years of knowledge and perspective............. i cant wait until i am 2 or 3,..who knows what will be possible then!!

if you really think about it, we probably dont have to look very far to find others whom have it worse off than us.

sincerely, and God bless

tony

[Omaschwannoma]

Tony,

I too have given thought to what I could not do post surgery vs what I could pre surgery.  Is it as exciting as crossing oceans, hike up mountains, hit home runs?  Maybe, if you allow it your new life can be just as exciting.  Same as you allowed yourself to cross an ocean, hike up a mountain and hit a home run.  These were the perceptions of excitement to you then.  What is your perception of excitement now post surgery not pre surgery, but post?  Our perceptions of our life depend on our ability to accept ourselves now.  Like sailing, you do not want to stall in the water nor do you want to lose ground, but always move forward.  It's the challenge that keeps us interested and searching!  May you be peaceful, happy and healthy!

[Captain Deb]

I, too, spend a lot of time thinking about what I can't do any more, and what's even worse is that I see other AN patients who go back to doing them and I get really envious. I'm one of the few posties left with relentless headaches, which, although they are much better than they were, still really limit my activity. The headaches have limited my ability to regain alot of balance funtion.  I'm left with the "new normal" me and I sometimes have a very rough time with her!
Like I really want to go to the Symposium, but my hubby will probably be working out of town and the idea of travelling without my caregiver is a little overwhelming considering the airport is a 3 hr drive and I don't do well on freeways.

But I'm sitting here typing in front of the gorgeous painting that I have been chipping away at, working about 3 hours a day is all I can do right now--and it's almost finished and it's already sold for $7000, so I guess my life isn't actually the hell that I sometimes think it is after all. I'm very fortunate to have something to do which is really fulfilling and that is truly a blessing. I'm really thankful to have a place to voice these feelings, and other people who will listen (or read.)

And I try to convince myself that my sailing days are not over, just different!

Be Well, Everyone

Capt Deb

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Captain Deb

Wow!!!! You are blessed!!!!!! As I mentioned awhile back I am also an artist but I've not been able to touch a brush since surgery. But I am counting on hitting the brushes when I make my move to Texas. I will e-mail you later about my SSD
eve

[jacobs]

 Brasher,I think it's totally "normal" to have feelings like this.Your surgery is still very fresh and you are still healing mentally and physically. I remember not feeling like myself for months and months after my surgery.I went back to work and functioned but still felt kind of foggy for ages.The fact that you are able to focus on the positive seems that you are doing just fine on your road of recovery.
 Keep up the positive thoughts,it does get easier...
Tracey