Mel,
You had surgery on the Sept26th – yes?
This has you today at just over 2 weeks post op. AT this point I am guessing the meds are playing havoc on your body (GI included) and I know I was the most down right about that time.
Are you still at HEI (St. Vincent’s area) or are you home now?
You are writing and posting already - good for you!
I want to tell you that recovery does get better with time. I called an AN forum person, who lives in my area back here at home (I went out-of-state to CA for surgery), and she told me not to be expecting to walk, unassisted, until week 4. I wrote this on the calendar … and she was bang on to the day. This week I just passed the 6 week mark (Wednesday) and I can now actually ride in a car without wanting to … to … (ok whirl and hurl)… improvement does happen… I can testify to this.
I did not look into a mirror for 2 weeks. The first time was grueling. I also do not want to view photos my husband is taking of my face (we are doing this so we can document the improvements as they come – and thesey are VERY slowly coming). Do not bottle up your feelings and frustrations- write down your thoughts (or dictate these to a friend or a tape recorded to note down later in a journal. Your booklet you are doing with your mother sounds like a positive activity)… this will help you to reflect and realize that there is progress- however slow this may appear.
It is hard not to be an impatient patient. (I know this fisrt hand)
Hang in there and know that you can reach out to people on this forum. Never did I know I could laugh at my situation until I posted “Drunken Sailors in the Wind?� and Captain Deb came back with a post that had my stitches almost pop- I laughed so hard. Don’t pent emotions back: cry, laugh and write your thoughts and ideas down.
Keep moving forward.
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