Well, today starts the final leg of my "Adventure".. It's 6:30 A:M and I should still be in bed but I am wide awake.. For some reason it's not the same " we are going fishing .. need to get up before sunrise and get to the boat ramp" kind of wide awake.. It is anticipation.. the unknown.. the "what if's"...Radiation is a whole new thing for me... The thought is there.. "Stay positive Tim.. stay positive..." But then there is the part of me that says to expect the worst and if that happens I won't be shocked. Who am I kidding ?? I WILL be shocked !!! Thanks to the "prepare ahead" suggestions of my daughter , Erika , I have been learning my new language.. and I am very proud of what I have accomplished in a relatively short time.. but just like being in a foreign country very few people speak my new language .. what do I do
Do I withdraw into a world of the non-hearing
Do I forge ahead and "make it work"
As much as I feel I have prepared for this day I feel so unprepared..
I think I will go lay back down and wait for the alarm...
