Hi Ethan,
I think Jim might be right when he says most dreams are generated by mental and emotional processes (memory, fear, anxiety). In my case, as a child I had frequent dreams about being able to fly. Sometimes upon awakening, I actually thought I could fly. However, I never jumped off of a tall building to check it out! As an adult I have had periods of time where I had these flying dream. I guess these dreams can be interpreted in many ways. Just check out the books on dreams in the bookstore. But, I think ultimately in the end only you can interpret your own dreams. I also think sometimes dreams are just dreams with no real meaning attached. I think my flying dreams come up when I am anxious. However, I have been terribly anxious about this AN, but I haven't had any flying dreams. But, now I will probably have one tonight since I just now mentioned this on your post! I think these AN do a mental job on all of us, and we can see some weird things coming about as a result. For instance, I have now become a compulsive radio volume watcher. I listen to the same CD in my car over and over and note that when it is on 9 it is my "normal" listening mode, and when I want to "get down" it goes to 10. This has become my unofficial hearing test! I have other weird stuff I do as well--putting my finger in one ear and then the other to check the hearing level, switching the phone from ear to ear to compare, etc. New things to keep my OCD in overdrive. Oh, one of my frequent dreams is that I wake up and my AN has grown 1 cm overnight--maybe that is really a nightmare!
Hang in there Ethan. You are not crazy, and you never know, you might be on to something!!!
Nancy