Hi Michelle-
Sorry that your Blinkeze is causing frustration. I had to experiment with a lot of differenct positions on my eyelid to find the one that worked best. Because I have zero movement up there (and, don't tell anyone, but I am also 52!) there is some, shall we say "excess" skin on my eyelid. If the weight is just slightly wrong on my lid, it tends to pull my lid over my eye (not in the desired "blinking" way...), or it will pull my upper lid over, if that makes sense. I say, keep trying different positions and see if you can get it to work. Also, I still have to really concentrate to close that eye with the weight.\
Ideally, your opthalmologist will "fit" you for the proper size weight in his/her office. Mine had an entire set of weights that they stick to you lid to find the one that is just right for you. It seems like it might be rather difficult to find opthalmologists in Canada who are familiar with this? If you can find someone who does the surgically implanted Gold Weight eyelid weights, they should be able to help you, though. The same company makes both the temp and the surgical weights, so the "test" weights that the doctor uses are the same. I hope this makes sense?
Trish, I am so surprised that your doc said that it was too soon for the removable weight! I've read about so many people on the forum who get them wihtin a few weeks of surgery. And, I must say, that while they don't apparently work for everyone, the weight has been a life-saver (or should I say "eye-saver"?) for me!
Well, enough about Blinkeze!
Michelle, I know what you mean about missing your big smile - I miss mine, too. The pirate-smile isn't quite as charming, is it? However, keep smiling anyway and don't lose your sense of humor and great attitude. It does get better!
Debbi