I did the 5 full days this week. Not only did I go back to work this week, but started a new position too. Not the greatest timing, but you take a promotion when you get it.
I work for a big company, and although I'm in IT, we got moved us to a very big room (think small mall proportions) with LOTS of people and noise, although you learn to tune the noise out. The first couple of days were a bit hard - between the noise, the big open room, all the people and the fatigue. The room got easier as the week went on (the fatigue didn't) and doesn't really bother me anymore.
I did screw up last weekend though. I felt
SO good, and I totally overdid it. And unfortunately I have been paying for it ever since.
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I think last weekend was the first time I finally felt almost totally like myself. No heavy, foggy feelings in my head, plenty of energy, very little balance issues, etc. I went to the mall and it didn't bother me anymore (I was so excited), I mowed, power washed and stained decks, etc. I could kick myself now, but at the time it just felt so good to be outside doing all the things I love to do and haven't been able to for so long...
Took Tylenol PM Sun-Thurs in order to get to sleep earlier than I normally do because I have to get up so early, but by today I'm am exhausted. I did nothing today. Sat and rested and was a couch potato. Balance is a bit worse - I"m assuming because I'm tired. I know it always gets worse when I am. And the foggy feeling is also back.
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It's not horrible, but it definately feels like I've taken a step or 2 backwards. The thing is, I'm tired, but I guess not enough to nap like I could in the few weeks following the surgery. On top of it all, I haven't slept very good the past 2 nights. This morning I woke up at 5:30 and couldn't get back to sleep.
It's kinda scary, but I keep telliing myself this to shall pass. I keep doing my PT, and I feel like I'm doing good there. I just think that if I could get a couple of good nights of sleep, and was planning to sleep in this both days this weekend, that I would feel much better. I don't know - maybe between the stress of going back to work, starting a new position, getting used to that big room, and driving back and forth each day has taken it's toll on me. I keep thinking that when I first started VPT she told me that I would feel worse for about a week before I felt better. I hope that this is similar.
Guess I just needed to vent. Don't have anyone but the pups here at home to vent to, and they're not real good at talking back unless it's dinner time and the one friend that would be my biggest support and listen to me forever if she needed is going through a very awful time - her husband has 3 forms of cancer and has reached a point that is very critical and there is a possibility that he may not make it this time. I'm being her support person right now. She needs me more than I need her right now.
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Thanks for listening. I'm so down today....
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Cathy