Hello,
It's terribly frustrating to have an AN and then to have to try to figure out the best treatment options on something that you've never heard of before your diagnosis, only adds to the problem. It's too bad there isn't one cut and dried method of treating our problem, but there isn't. This is what I know about my experience.
I am *ahem* older. I have diabetes. The doctor's that I went to highly recommended radiotherapy for me. My doctor is young and has trained in surgery and also on the "big machines" and I was gently steered in this direction. Not really enthusiastic about microsurgery, I gratefully accepted their recommendation and went ahead with Gamma Knife the next month. Do I have regrets? No, not really. Do I wish the outcome was better? Yes, I do. I hoped that my symptoms would disappear. They did not. It was too late to get back what was already lost to me. I have little hearing in my AN ear and no word recognition, and I have constant tinnitus, which you sort of get used to over time. I have facial numbness on the AN side which is greatly annoying. This affects the inside of the mouth and half the tongue. I have a constant salty taste in my mouth. I was hoping that would go away, but it didn't. My balance system was already compensating for my AN before I even knew I had one. After reading an excellent article explaining the balance system and how it works, I realize that I did have many subtle symptoms long before the tinnitus showed up and sent me to the doctor. I have some "wonkyness" and cognitive/memory problems, but nothing to the extreme.
I don't have headaches. I don't have extreme balance issues. I don't have facial paralysis, but I might have the smallest amount of facial weakness on my AN side, but since I'm *ahem* older, it's hard to tell the difference between that and gravity.
I don't have any post surgical complications because I didn't have surgery. Do I wish I had surgery? I've thought about it and wondered if I'd gone that route would anything have been better. It's not unusual to wonder about the path not taken. Maybe I wouldn't have facial numbness. Or maybe I'd be in a worse situation. Or not. Who knows?
I'm not afraid of the risks regarding radiation. I realize that I'm closer to the end of the road than the beginning so very long term effects won't be an issue for me, but even if I were younger, I wouldn't be terribly concerned. All treatments are risky and you just take a leap of faith and go for it. I mean I could have been killed in a car wreck on the way to GK.
I personally wish that I'd never gotten this stupid thing. But, in a world of stupid medical conditions, we all know what horrible things lurk out there, and this is certainly preferable than other stupid things. And I'm grateful that we have the technology that we have to deal with these stupid things. The skillful hands of a surgeon or the skillful use of a Gamma Knife machine are miracles to me.
Best of luck to you in your decision and your eventual recovery,
Sue in Vancouver USA