Thanks for sharing that with me, I was beginning to think it was just me, also I guess that at the back of mind is the worry of any re growth, I know its rare but when you know you have a bit of tumour still left in there, well, it does leave you wondering what’s happening inside your head, after all the only time you get to see it is when you have a scan, (which funnily enough I recieved an appointment for yesterday, its due on 17th March) but lets face it if you have a lump anywhere on your body you can watch it and see if it changes, we just can't do that, so your just left hoping, wishing, praying that everything is ok.
I am at the specialists on Thursday so I will make sure I tell them everything, My aches and pains, my anxiety and my heightened emotions which have gradually been getting worse for the last month or so, I don’t know if I’m slightly depressed or just emotional, I’ve never suffered with any sort of depression before so to be honest I don’t really know how that feels, I just know one minute I’m up, up, up and the next I’m down, down, down. In fact today I shouted at my daughter for creasing her clothes that I had only just ironed, I know that doesn’t sound to strange but my behaviour was, I took the school shirt and shouted “why do I bother, lets just crumple it up some more shall we� and with that I screwed it up and threw it on the floor “there� I said “that’s much better now, isn’t it� I walked away in tears but I was laughing at how ridiculous it seemed and how I got so worked up over something so trivial, my husband saw me crying and laughing uncontrollably and asked me firstly if I was alright and secondly was I loosing the plot, which says it all really.
I now realise that I should be getting this sorted out and soon, I shall mention everything that has been said regarding these posts and hopefully I will soon be
n.o.r.m.a.l again.
here's hoping
Cheryl XxX