Welcome to the small AN club
I always wake up feeling like a I need a cup of coffee. I actually wake up tremendously cheerful (it annoys most people, in particular my office mates).
However, I am feel that I am 'blind' on the AN side - I think with less hearing (my loss is exceptionally mild) and a very very very mild balance issue, I am not comfortable off that side (it is also my less dominant side).
Someone is going to throw daggers at me one day with my comments on anxiety - are you getting less sleep, thinking about the sucker during the day?
I did at the beginning - think much less about it, now am sleeping better, and not totally perplexed by the idea of a tumor in my skull. It has helped a lot - and no longer have this fog, of what if, what if, what if - over my head.
I have gotten this far by making a pseudo-decision - if I needed treatment, what would I chose. (In my case, it is surgery) I am allowed to change at any minute (and probably wont' treat for years, crossing my fingers) - but it helped a lot to know that the decision was made.
Good luck
Ann
BTW - I need the coffee because I LOVE the smell of coffee and I allow myself to guiltlessly sit down with a coffee cup (mom of 4 syndrome)