Behind the jokes - of course I have worried, I know you see beyond the facade. I noticed today, the first day at work, that nothing seemed really important. I just could not focus on any of the projects that I have running.
I tried to listen to myself... A sense of relief of course, but strange enough also some kind of disappointment? Guess I was preparing for a worst case scenario, and when it did not happen it takes some time to get used to not living on the edge. Less adrenalin, less exitment - just a long road to help my wife back. Don't get me wrong, I'm very happy to get my wife home, but there is a strange feeling - something like a firefighter arriving to the scene finding it was a false alarm. Wierd.. and I have some problems finding the best words... I still think it's a good idea to share it - maybe there are others that have felt the same?
We talked before about how life goes on, with teenage kids... And before having dinner tonight we did a small family project... It's got absolutely nothing to do with AN, but I think some distraction from the usual can't hurt anyone here. It's definately not more OT than lingonberrries (I would put them in a small bottle and pour Vodka over them, and a lump of sugar)
This is what Oliver (camera and mixing), Elinor (stunt driver) and I (director) did:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ps6g_u1l8AAJust for fun... and that thing in the clips sure is a family toy... even for Helene - but she will never admit it..