Hi Kenneth,
Gosh, it's comforting for me to hear that what I have been going through is not abnormal. That's what you have to remember too.
I find that I don't even like to go out to events that I used to live for, because I am tired of explaining that I can't hear out of this ear and why. I prefer the quiet or just time with friends that are thoughtful enough to stand on my left side.
I have been going to a therapist for my emotional issues, I take Zoloft for depression, and I have Xanac for my panic attacks. (which I have often).
I am not a selfish person but I guess I do feel somewhat sorry for myself. I returned to work 2 1/2 months after my surgery and should not have. I was still learning to walk. But my spouse insisted that it was best to get back on the horse! I am a high school teacher and it has been an extremely difficult year. I also get tired of hearing my family comment about how tired I am all of the time. But on the plus side, besides being a survivor of course, is that I sleep like a baby. Can't hear any of the snoring, radio/tv, or talking going on. Now as a unique form of payback, I have developed snoring!!! Mostly from the fact that my right nostril has collapsed almost completely blocking air flow. Another side effect to add to the list. So there is my whining for the day.
We all have to stick together and realize that we are dealing with a very rare tumor and I am sure it must be difficult for doctors to explain to us what to expect. It's nice to be able to share with people who care. So you hang in their Kenneth! There is nothing wrong with you or me! It's just that people don't know what we are going through. So I will continue to smile my crooked smile and turn my head to hear and enjoy all of the goodness I can from these amazing teenagers I teach everyday! Best of luck to you!
